Versions

In a moment of profound self-reflection, honouring the different versions of myself that have shaped who I am today.

Every choice I’ve made,  every decision that felt uncertain at the time, has contributed to the wisdom I carry now.

I’ve journeyed through many phases of growth, each one adding depth and understanding to my identity. 

In some ways, I’ve been many people in one lifetime—and that’s something I'm proud of. Each version of me, whether it was a version of hope, doubt, strength, or transformation, has served a purpose. And now, looking back, I can see how each part of my story was necessary for the person I am becoming.

I honour that and in doing so, I honor my capacity to evolve. It’s a reminder that I’m never stuck—just always in the process of becoming, continuously shedding layers and uncovering new possibilities. 

I stand as a testament to my own resilience and growth, fully embracing both my past and my future.

While reflecting with gratitude on my journey, acknowledging how past versions of myself made choices based on the knowledge I had, and how I’m now making decisions with the wisdom I’ve gained. 

I smile as I revisit my blog which started 15 years ago during a restless night as a teenager. While reading my old posts, I briefly felt the urge to perfect them but chose to leave them as they are, recognizing they reflect a different version of me. 

This moment symbolizes my gradual shift away from perfectionism, a trait I’ve held for much of my life. I’m learning to embrace imperfection, knowing that my future self will be shaped by the decisions I make now, and that each version of me, past and present, is a valuable part of my journey.

Coming back to this blog makes me realize my soul has always been on this journey, guiding me in ways that defy logic or reason. Allowing myself to trust the path even when it didn’t make sense at the time. Trusting myself and my inner wisdom always returning to self.

Reading these past posts across different stages of my life—teenager, 20s, and now my 30s—has shown me just how much I’ve grown. It’s not just the evolution of my thoughts or experiences, but the *becoming* of who I truly am. Each version of me shedding what no longer serves, creating space for a more authentic, expansive version of myself. Each chapter better than the last, and more aligned with the real me. That’s something I’m truly proud of, regardless of the obstacles.

This blog reminds me of the emotional landscape of my journey. There’s so much richness in keeping this blog going, as it holds the essence of who I’ve been and continues to witness who I’m becoming. It’s a living archive of my soul’s growth, and the decision to keep posting here is a way to honor the continuity of my evolution.

It’s a reminder that, even in moments of change, there’s something deeply grounding about staying connected to my roots. This blog isn’t just a collection of past thoughts—it’s a place where I return to myself again and again, finding peace in the ongoing process of becoming.

I reflect on my journey with deep acceptance, feeling no regrets about the choices I’ve made. I walk my path with joy, authenticity, and gratitude for everyone and everything that has shaped my growth, whether through pleasant or challenging experiences. 

I stay rooted and maintain an unshakable belief in myself. Embracing the process of release, relearning, and unlearning, I continue to move forward with grace, undeterred by anything that comes my way.

I lovingly remind anyone reading this to stay rooted and authentic to self as you evolve and to release what no longer serves, to unlearn what limits you, and to trust in the unshakable belief in yourself. 

To walk in integrity, strength and grace.To be unapologetically YOU.

Love and Light always,

Umi.